Leaving Work – 18/07/12

Yes, I feel ecstatic about leaving my employer after over a decade!

Wednesday is my last day. So although I am about a week behind on my study schedule I will be able to make up for it when I get back from Cambridge.

I have already applied for a few part-time jobs: 15-20 hours per week. I have budgeted everything up until January and can live comfortably and have plenty of fun in this time without having to work but I could still do with some more cash 🙂

This is scarily exciting and I will not regret a single thing, it’s the best thing I could have done. My desk at work is almost tidy and I’m just getting everything organised so it all feels like my new life of study will take off!

I might make a video diary whilst at Cambridge but will see how things go.


Winning and losing at the same time – tomorrow is results day!

As Rocky said, ““No-one hits harder than life. It’s not about how hard you can hit, it’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward – that’s how winning is done!”

But, I am feeling slightly miserable.

I worked extremely hard on BIOL1. Before the exam I had practiced endless test papers and improved my exam technique. I was confident as I was completing the practice papers with lots of time to spare so before the actual exam I was calm, ready and looking forward to it.

During the exam was a different story. I started off well, I got stuck, then I panicked. Time quickly disappeared as I searched for the right answers, the pressure was mounting. Staring at the clock on the wall, it seemed to laugh at me as my pen was steaming on the answer book.

I did not complete all the questions. Needless to say I was quite disheartened by this, however, being the first exam I had sat in many years it was a good to get my toes wet and see how I would get on.

Today, AQA, the awarding body have issued the grade boundaries for the year on all subjects. On The Student Room (TSR) forum, many people are overjoyed, some are rightly upset.

For BIOL1, the grade boundary is the highest it has ever been, this means more marks are needed to get higher grades. I am collecting my results from Basil Peterson College in Edinburgh tomorrow.

I have to keep reminding myself that I did all I could in the time I had. Re-learning things from GCSE level and applying it at A level is no easy task in such a short time. It makes me wonder how well I would have got on if I had been studying full-time. Alas, this is no time to justify my performance. I want to celebrate whatever my grade but I cannot help but feel glum.

After seeing the grade boundary, I am predicting grade C.

I can learn from it or I can beat myself up about it. I really feel I gave it 100%. So I intend to grieve for this for a short period and then swiftly hold this energy to propel me into becoming even more focused and determined to succeed!

I stride forward…

If I want it, I must go get it and be happy with the journey.


Keep going! – Every page is an undiscovered galaxy

I love Unit 1 of A level Physics on quantum phenomena and electricity, it is hard work though.

I did a ton of study yesterday and today I’m having a mental block. I felt discouraged and stared blankly at the pages of Unit 2: Mechanics, materials and waves. An abyss of information and calculations.

I decided that the best way forward was to go for a 5 mile run. Let things settle before I embark on another journey through the space of my mind in the aspect of the second unit of the course.

Each new page is a new galaxy; undiscovered and unknown. It can be quite overwhelming. I feel like I’m inside a tiny vessel looking outward and in a very short space of time i need to become that galaxy. I need to fully understand it, to be one with it in all of its expanse.

In reality though, there is not much to be learnt. It just appears at present difficult and gigantic.

Every page I will try to master part by part. Time is ticking though and I need to remain focused.

Mind Mapping

I’m reviewing PHYA1 using mind maps.

I’m finding this extremely useful. Not only do mind maps show different relationships and connections, they also easily reveal the basic concepts clearly using relatively few words. Continue reading