I’ve spent all weekend on the mechanics section of AS Physics. I’ve not got very far since I need to relearn the basics of Trigonometry. It’s time-consuming but it’s an absolute must for this unit. I’m thinking of taking the mechanics unit for maths at the same time, this makes sense!

There are so many good teachers out there on the net but it is challenging finding everything and putting it together and relating it specifically to my course. Sheesh!


I feel great today!

Yup, after some very stressful times at work, things are appearing to calm down somewhat.

Tonight, I have completed the penultimate chapter for my Biology unit. This is good news. This means that I have a lot of time to re-learn everything at a deeper level.

Last night was ‘Date night’. We went to a wonderful newish pub called ‘ The Red Squirrel’ in the center of town for a meal. With its wonderful selection of world beers and wines it would have been rude not to have tried the free sample that was offered by the  manager I was talking to.

I have started my personal statement to Cambridge Summer school. Hoping to obtain one of those golden tickets to the chocolate factory sort of thing ha ha! It is going well, I still need a bunch of people to look at it and give me some further input.


Keep going! – Every page is an undiscovered galaxy

I love Unit 1 of A level Physics on quantum phenomena and electricity, it is hard work though.

I did a ton of study yesterday and today I’m having a mental block. I felt discouraged and stared blankly at the pages of Unit 2: Mechanics, materials and waves. An abyss of information and calculations.

I decided that the best way forward was to go for a 5 mile run. Let things settle before I embark on another journey through the space of my mind in the aspect of the second unit of the course.

Each new page is a new galaxy; undiscovered and unknown. It can be quite overwhelming. I feel like I’m inside a tiny vessel looking outward and in a very short space of time i need to become that galaxy. I need to fully understand it, to be one with it in all of its expanse.

In reality though, there is not much to be learnt. It just appears at present difficult and gigantic.

Every page I will try to master part by part. Time is ticking though and I need to remain focused.

Inner science or outer reliance

“Don’t blindly believe what I say. Don’t believe me because others convince you of my words. Don’t believe anything you see, read, or hear from others, whether of authority, religious teachers or texts. Don’t rely on logic alone, nor speculation. Don’t infer or be deceived by appearances.”

Buddha Shakyamuni apparently said this.

But who is to say that Buddha was actually enlightened and did actually say this? Did Buddha Shakyamuni actually write any books? Maybe a bunch of hippies from thousands of years ago imagined it and thought it would be cool if they invented a being who appeared infallible yet was beyond the ordinary appearances and sensory perceptions of the conventional world? But some would say that there is a lineage and there is a history of this glorious enlightened being.

Do we have to directly experience something to believe in it? Obviously not; as we know history no longer exists yet it was real and it did exist. Did man really land on the moon? The media told me so. Have I checked? No, I am happy to believe this conventional ‘fact’ yet many people believe otherwise. Why do people believe in ghosts or reincarnation?

Being a scientist involves relying on certain methods that others can test and validate: Psychologists are scientists of behaviour (actions and responses that can be observed directly) and scientists of the mind who study internal states and processes (these are often inferred from observable measured responses). Evidence to validate scientific conclusions referring to inner phenomena are not easily obtained.

I ask myself:

What are you asking me to believe? How do you know? What is the evidence? What other possibilities and alternative viewpoints are there? What constitutes a reasonable thought-out conclusion? What is most beneficial to believe?

Self-actualization and real experience from ones own investigations are extremely valuable since there is no benefit in probing things to the point of impotence of clear thinking but the proof of anything really lies in experiencing it for oneself.  Then again science doesn’t really prove anything does it? How do we find the middle-way between being objective and being subjective?

Perhaps there are more questions than answers. This is good news.